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HELD · for the loss of a pet · every card is a room
F  E  E  L
You will not always feel exactly this. Not because you'll forget — because you will grow around it.
XIII

FEEL · XIII

Lesson XIII of XIII · the FEEL course
The idea behind this card — Growing around grief

Lois Tonkin's model corrected the false promise that grief shrinks with time. It doesn't — life grows larger around it. The missing stays the size it was, because the love stays the size it was, but mornings and people and new rooms accumulate around it until it is no longer the whole picture. Perhaps, someday, new paws too — or not. Either way: not forgetting, not shrinking. Growing around.

Voices — this card, in use

Teaching vignettes: illustrative voices showing the practice applied. The living candle wall grows below.

Sol — 'the grief didn't shrink. the year grew around it — a new job, my niece, even a foster kitten. same circle, bigger page.'

Ruth, 74 — 'drew Tonkin's circles for my grandkids to explain missing Pepper. they got it instantly. life grows around. it's growing.'

people sat with this card this month

Whatever is coming up

This room is open every time — tonight, the anniversary, years from now. What's here right now?

This room doesn't expire. Grief isn't a one-time event — anniversaries, ambushes, the good years, the hard ones — and the card in your hand is a permanent key. Come back for whatever is coming up.

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